Before I continue with my response to the acts of these Internet pirates,one thing needs to be perfectly clear: I indeed value my privacy and thus have revealed only the incidents that occurred during my ten year long Hare Krishna arranged “marriage” to Gopal Krishna that contain acts I (and all civilized societies) consider criminal in nature. To reveal more is painful for me inasmuch as they also bring to mind how devoted I was to my guru and how strictly and sincerely I adhered to his teachings. Those of you who are former old-time devotees might know something about what I feel, but my particular circumstances do merit special consideration. My method of recollecting the indignities I suffered at the hands of my ex-“husband” will begin with a description of the incident in question and then provide some relevant background information.
- He informed me that he had spoken to a devotee he knew with a legal background about my intentions and that, under New York State law, I could be sued for desertion if I tried to leave. At the time, I was 18 years old and ignorant of the law, so I was understandably intimidated.
- After I persisted, Gopal undertook to frighten me even further, telling me that he would inform the New York City Housing Authority that my grown siblings still lived with my mother, with the intention of having my entire family evicted and turned out on the street.
- Finally, after I piteously begged him to leave me alone and let me go home, he explained to me the real reason why he would not let me leave him:[i]
SATISFY HIS LUST.
No friends (nor boyfriends, ever!), little contact with my family, all in the hope of pleasing my beloved guru and serving (what I believed to be) the Godhead in the form of Sri Krishna. Weekends found me putting on a sari and tilok, trekking to the ISKCON temple--then at 61 Second Avenue --and going on sankirtan on Saturday and on Sunday helping to prepare the love feast. If I couldn’t make it to the temple on Saturday, I would spend the day creating oil paintings of various aspects of the Krishna legend. All holidays and the summer vacation were spent in this way. I frequently wrote to my guru, A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, and received lengthy replies and his sincere approbation.[ii]
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For more information in this regard, see my essays: